Courageously walking forward...

Ephesians 4:22-24

Throw off your old sinful nature and your former way of life, which is corrupted by lust and deception. Instead, let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes. Put on your new nature, created to be like God—truly righteous and holy.

Ever heard of the term, "Let go & Let God"? Ever really sit and think about those words rather than just quoting them in comments or posts. To really let go & let God, seems harder than it has to be. Consumed by my own depression and my thoughts I was in a place where I was never happy, nothing helped, and everyone around me was at fault. Life was nothing I wanted it to be. I was determined to take it all upon myself to change whatever needed changing. So there I was wondering which way to go- so I pray, God please lead me in the direction you want me, the best way for me to go. I pretty much had it all figured out in my head just thought hey let's pray for good measure, can't hurt right? 

Ever heard a song about Unanswered Prayers? Well let me be the first to tell you, I don't believe that prayers go unanswered, we just don't always get the answers we were looking for. I asked God what do I need to do and was hit right in the face with the answer I knew all along. Change in my life started right there, first and foremost, through him. Something you would think I saw coming. When it hit me, it HIT ME. Change, people say, comes over time. Ya know what though, I believe that you can change in an instant. When the clarity hit me, I saw everything differently. 

After a long time of me and Tj just pouring it all out and just really connecting to everything in our lives and everything that we knew we needed to do, we made a lot of changes. Living this life of acceptance of the society we live in was taking it's toll. Acceptance of the "I need a drink" persona after anything or everything seems hard. We are very guilty of that. I can't tell you how many weekends we would just "party" or just "hang out & drink". Sounds innocent enough, to most I know, and by no means is this meant to bash anyone that drinks and has parties or anything. I just know that lifestyle, wasn't meant for us, and trying to make it fit us- was going to kill us. You can be pretty, you can be drunk, but you can't be a "pretty drunk". 

Cutting out alcohol was one step in our choice to move forward. We decided to Let go, & really actually LET GOD. It's been almost 4 months now since either one of us has had a drink. It's also been 4 months now that we have enjoyed each other and our family, purely and with no side effects (insert lol) You may think you know the direction you are going right now, but take a second to ask God if that direction is the right way- you never know what he's going to say, and the destination, is going to be worth it, no matter what you come across along the way. 

 

And one more tiny little detail that I feel MUST be added... How great do we look in NY GIANTS GEAR?? SUPER BOWL CHAMPS!!! :)